Steadily Toward Home

Freer and freer,
Slowly
Savoring each step
To get the fullness of
the flavor and the taste
of the madness and sorrow
66 years in exile wrought.

I move toward my WISH.
Into FREEDOM.
HEART FULL,
I move toward Home
And You,
My Beloved of Beloveds.

~ LL 10 April 2011

Life Goes On...

for some.

Harvey  ~ Beeswax ~LL. 1970

For others it is frozen in a permanent loop of repetition.
The same old, same old,
New each time -
as if it never happened before.
While dreaming he is moving
He marches in place
Growing old
Dreaming he is a boy.

Lies, justifications, explanations, defense
All stand at that door
Fully armed
Guarding against the truth.

Listen!
Can you hear?

L 2011

Where Fear Cannot Live

ASCENDING, LL 2002

"Fear tingles in me.
Gripping  at my innards like a tap dancing fighter
It wrestles with my emotions and head brain
In the arena of my body.

Creating an anxiety
that spreads throughout my cells like a rash,
Causing an 'unpleasant itching' in my heart
And exaggerated tension in the tummy.

With attention awakened, I stop everything and am very still.
Hmm...
Here's a clue.

A sensation at the back of the head is whispering stories.
I can hear them clearly now,
Whereas before there was only a vague "not feeling so good".

Know the difference in sensations and where they fall in you.
Learn the body's mode of communication well.
The sensations of knowing what is real and and what is true do not live there,
At that spot in the head.
That is the ego's place
Recognizable by it's dull sensation.

Listening sensing carefully, I realize it is that snake, ego
Rummaging around in old files in the 'formatory apparatus',
Reading off the past presenting it as the now
To do it's fear mongering.
The liar is trying to fool me.
That is what is causing  this"fear".
It is trying to fool my sweet heart into total upset.
It is trying to trap my being in it's illusion with it's snaky whispering.

Shh....
More vigilant now, more present...
Shh... quieter still,
I shine the light of Attention on them,
That secretary of the filing cabinets and the sneaky snake.
In the shadows I see
Ego desperately wanting to regain lost ground.
It wants its "throne" back, it wants to "live".

It wants to be Laura.

In the illumination of this revelation
The cellular rash clears instantly.
Tension, that 'itching'  in the heart area
and tummy go away.

Ahhh, I am myself again.
O' Happy day.

Breathing freely.

Peace and Blessings
Peace and Blessings,

Thank you GOD, The All.

Peace and Blessings
Peace and Blessing to You
All eternity long. "


~ L. Lopez 8/11/2010

Do Not Squander Your Hard Earned Pay

Do not squander your hard earned Pay.
Baby steps, my friend,
Lest you trip and fall.

Your work is not done at first light,
Nor even at the ten thousandth.
Wait a while longer and see where,
Moment to moment,
Yearnings and learnings fall in you
And how they fit in the Now.

Too much excitement over new discoveries,
Too much talking -the Ego's boasting -
Takes experience into the head brain and
Makes you drunk with the illusion of "mystical" power
And imagined Being.

In squandering your riches this way,
Carless-ness surely ensues.

Before you know it,
Revelations become clouds of confusion and babble.
No "bravado" can save you there.
No "bravado" can Awaken you there
In that sleep.

Many would be prophets walk that road
For a long time,
Lost Emperors in "new robes".
Using "tricks" to fool the masses,
They end at the End -
Empty shells
Of tatter and regret.

Work where God Lives.

Stay until you are able to Under- stand

Without quotation marks.
Stay until you Know
Your cellular structure

and the Way of things 

Intimately.

Respect your self.
Know that body is not yours alone
Know those magical glimpses of Life
Are gifts from the Beloved.
Know That which is Highest in You - is in All.
Know that each Breath is the Master
Living and Breathing You without a wink.

Learn to focus in and focus out at the same time.
Without losing sight of the one or the other.

Be Brave
Be Honest
Be Truthful
Be Sincere
Be a Warrior
Be Compassion
BE LOVE
BE

Not from the mind
But from BEING.

This is a Path.
The doorway you seek to Freedom is always Here.
In this moment and this moment and this moment....

c 21 July 2010
Laura Lopez

LISTENING

One millionth ear,  all the rest ~ head brain;
What a sad recipe!
Listen from your body.
Listen with your entire cellular structure.
That space between the ears has another purpose.

Be Listening
There is more to the world than you.

BE

Empty

Emptiness
Fills me
With
No limitations
I am No-thing
Alive in
Eternity
Bliss
              ~ LaloBean


GOD IS LOVE
BE GOD
BE LOVE
BE

Close Door Open Door Spin Spin Spin

I closed a door
and turned in Grace
First doubtful
Then full on conscious Faith
Spinning
I meet the Beloved
Dancing
Balanced
In
His Embrace

Be In Peace
Know You are Loved
BE

Two

I
ORDINARY

Day to day
Making time to play
All those lofty ponderings
Put away
Just Being here
With no demand
Being who I AM
Without you, my Beloved Friend.


II
MOURNING DOVE

Hroo, hroo
She sings to me from her tree outside my window.
Hroo, hroo
Pulling at my heart,
Which answers: Hroo, hroo
I have lost my dear ones too



Be Good, Be Happy, Be Well, Be at Peace,
L.

Humble Pie is a Good Thing

Humble Pie is a Good Thing

BE Humble
Eat some Humble pie
A suggestion to the ego
To PRACTICE Humility

Entertain the idea
Perhaps all would go easier for you
If you would only…

Wait to see

Who and what is standing in front of you
Stay all those reactive parts
Entice your "brain" with the promise

Perhaps the deep sorrow you experience
Is your heart yearning.

Open to Love

You are them
They are you
You are it
It is you

All connected
One very long Golden thread

What is all the fear about?
Afraid you won’t get your share?
Afraid you won’t get enough?
Afraid you will be tricked?
Afraid you won't get a return on your "investments"?

Stop being a puffed up goose
Your hissing keeps you from what you want most
Your doubt chokes and empties your life
Until you are dead
Worse than stone

Already consumed by the moon

Be at Peace,
Lalo

No-thing

Don't worry,
There is Life after this discovery of your nothingness.
Freedom is there -
Just past that trying to crawl back into the tomb of forgetting
Like a frightened stink bug.

Stay where you can be seen.
Freedom is almost yours.
Keep moving forward into the clean fresh air
Of your real Being.

The "Head Brain"

This whirring machine
Wasting precious time and energy
In senseless pursuits of "truths"
In a place where no real truth exists
Beware the false idols that live in the pigeon holes of its illusions
And its bins filled with yellowed pages blurred by time
Stop trying to fit square pegs into round holes
Beware lusting after paste gems that appear to be diamonds and rubies in that dung heap
You are hallucinating
Come out, come back to yourself
Drop the anchor, settle in the body
Bath yourself clean with your own sensations of Living
Give up those ideas and dreams that you are.
Acknowledge the weather and your breath
Stand inside yourself
Open your heart to your own being
Inhabit your body.

l.lopez, 2009

Where Is My Friend?

Snagged and snagged again
On this and that
Things of consequence
and things of no consequence

She is lost
Wandering
Unknowing

Where is my friend?
She is gone too long;
I miss her company.

I sit quietly
Re membering

Ahh, here she is.

She slips in
Bringing the sun.

Peace,
L

Simplicity

Just
To Be

Living
Breathing
Walking
Talking
Sighing
Dieing
Eating
Laughing
Crying
Sleeping
Awake

Human

Yes, no, maybe
Yes

Just
To Be

Words
No Words
Thoughts
No thoughts

Me, myself and I
Inside
Outside
Here
With you
With me

Happy as a clam.

Peace