We forget what we want, who we are, what we just said, our good intentions - why? No one seems to be "home". We are constantly distracted, bombarded every second of every day with thousands of outer 'things' vying for and catching our attention. Even if I am not actually looking at something, even if it is only in my peripheral field of vision it influences me in some way - bids for my attention. Things outside of my direct and peripheral fields of vision bid for my attention as well - exerting influence on me. My organism senses them, knows they are there.
Automatically attaching themselves to each of these things are myriads of associations that string together and attach other groups of associations morning noon and night. To deal with all of this as well as those influences we receive on the psychic level, we walk around with mental and emotional blinders on, train our bodies to act accordingly. We are in a somnambulative state a majority of the time - it's "easier" that way. We become automatons - automatically selective - believing any random thought or story in the head, what we "like" and do not like, what we "want" and do not want. Automatically formed images or groups of images of what we imagine we and others are rule our actions. We rarely see who and what we really are. It's "too hard". It is uncomfortable to see ourselves in reality - without the blinders on.
No, it is better to forget and go with the false 'i's", the "stories" in the head, the status quo than to find and free the true self. "The price of inner freedom is too great!" is the war cry of the automatic machine. Thus we stay in our little prisons of dream and forgetfulness.
No comments:
Post a Comment